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I Have Mental Illness and a Dad

I thought I would dedicate an entry to my dad

On the surface, my dad, Gary Howard, is an uninteresting man. Before retiring, he was a semi-truck driver and now spends his days doing what can best be described as pissing off my mother. He lives in Memphis, Tennessee, and enjoys playing on his computer and amassing DVDs like squirrels amass nuts.

I Have Mental Illness and a DadWhen I was younger, my dad had the coolest job. I would brag to those around me that my dad could drive — and I would motion toward a giant semi-truck barreling down the freeway — one of those. Once, when I was in high school, I met him at a truck stop and watched him arrive in his 12-ton truck, felt the ground shake and the rumble of the diesel engine through my body, and watched his extremely average-sized body jump out of the cab onto the concrete. Maybe it was the diesel fumes I was breathing in, but I believe I caught a glimpse of what my mother must have seen in him all those years ago.

My dad didn’t teach me much on purpose. He certainly tried, but failed almost every time. He tried to teach me to play baseball, but hit me in the face with the ball; tried to teach me to ride a bike without training wheels, and I ran into the back of a parked car. Once, after realizing my teenage obsession with Cindy Crawford, he sat me down and explained that “most women don’t look like that.” I am certain this set off my desire to prove him wrong by dating only supermodels. :)

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Guest Blog: The Positive Elements of Bipolar Disorder

Please welcome guest blogger, Laurel Roth Patton, to GabeHoward.com:

The Positive Elements of Bipolar Disorder (Yes, There are Positive Elements)

Guest blogger, Laurel Roth Patton, discusses her experience with bipolar. Read how she goes from "Life of the Party to When-is-She-Going-to-Go-Home Girl."

I had my third episode of “bipolar florid mania” a year ago. Many people I know with Type I bipolar disorder have rapid onset. My own onset, however, is so slow, spanning as much as six months, that the changes from “normal” to hypomanic to manic are almost imperceptible. My signs of bipolar hypomania invariably present as completely positive. I’m finally happy! I am finally able to put my ideas into motion and follow through! My self-esteem goes up to a healthy level. When I am stable, my self-esteem tends to be low. I view myself through a distorted lens. It is actually when I am hypomanic that the lens snaps into focus. I become free of anxieties, confident, and feel that this is my true self. When stable, I often feel bad about myself, despite objective reasons that my self-esteem should be high: I am a kind, loving person with strong creative abilities, two master’s degrees, and a wonderful daughter and husband. I’m considered attractive, and have many friends and relatives who love me. I’ve had several interesting careers, because I want to experience as many things as possible, and I have wide-ranging interests. Many of the things I’ve crossed off my bucket list are considered pretty amazing. So why can’t I hold onto that positive self-esteem, productivity, and relief from the voices in my head that tell me I’m not good enough?

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I am Pissed Off About Having Mental Illness: Are You?

People living with mental illness share many common traits. In the advocacy world, we share many of them openly. We discuss the symptoms of the illness, the uncertainty, the fear, and we share ways that people with mental illness can receive better treatment, better services, more understanding, and have better outcomes.

We have another common trait that is seldom shared. We all experience it, on some level, and most of us share it only with our trusted friends and family. When we sit alone with other mentally ill people, we swap stories. That is when the true, unaltered, unpolished feelings come out. And what comes out is anger. I am Pissed Off About Having Mental Illness: Are You?

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Pay Attention to the Man with Mental Illness!

There are many ways to start a blog titled Pay Attention to the Man with Mental Illness! The title is rather self-explanatory, but also brings up other questions. How long should you pay attention? What subject should you pay attention to? Let’s clear this up, shall we?

Pay Attention to ME, not my Mental Illness

Welcome to the Gabe Show. I want all the attention, all the time. Perhaps that is a slight exaggeration but it is closer to the truth than me being a wallflower and certainly closer to the truth than me being a typical extrovert. The energy of people has always propelled me forward or pushed me backward. I love people. I am addicted to them. And, I want to be their leader.

Okay, leader is the wrong term. I don’t want to be responsible for them or tell them what to do or set boundaries or enforce rules. Mostly because I don’t want to enforce those rules on myself. Picture a free spirit and add a healthy dose of crazy.

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Gabe Howard Interview on La Literati

Hey everybody! Have you heard my latest podcast interview with La Literati? If you haven’t already, check it out.

In it we discuss my story of how I became a motivational speaker for learning how to live with mental health issues. I explain my personal background in how I discovered I have bipolar disorder and how I’ve overcome obstacles that I have faced because of it in my life – and I continue to do so. It’s an ongoing battle that can be managed and you do not have to let get you down.

Gabe Howard is a speaker, award-winning advocate, mental illness blogger and writer, as well a person living with severe bipolar and anxiety disorders. In the past ten years, he has made it his mission to put a face on mental illness that isn’t stereotypical. Society often sees people living with mental illness at their worst and he works to add a more balanced view to the conversation. Gabe is frequently irreverent, often too loud, and always unpredictable, but anyone who knows him will tell you that life would be so boring without him.We uncover some of the stereotypes and misunderstandings that people with mental health face from others who have never experienced it. We take calls from a few other people suffering with mental health issues and the common thread throughout the interview is that we’re not alone. We’re all in this together. There are others just like you going through the same struggles.

My goal is to help humanize and educate others who are living with mental health problems (1 in 5 Americans suffer from it). Got a question about the topic? Want to leave a comment? Please feel free using the below form. I’d love to hear what you have to say!

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I have Bipolar & Anxiety Disorders and I #LiveBold on HealthCentral

I am excited to announce that I am the second place winner of HealthCentral’s Live Bold, Live Now Photo Contest. The Live Bold contest is designed to show a person living well in spite of a health challenge. I have bipolar and anxiety disorders and I live bold every day. I have Mental Illness and I #LiveBold on HealthCentral

During the contest, over 1,150 individuals cast almost 2,100 total votes for me alone. The outpouring of support was amazing. As I sit here, I am still in shock, knowing the cumulative effort of so many people made this possible.

Winning this contest means an incredible amount, not just to me, but to anyone living with mental illness. The people who were voting sent me message after message cheering me on for my bravery, my openness, and they used my story to openly discuss mental illness with their friends and family. The amount of value this has is immeasurable.

Living with Bipolar and Anxiety is Uncertain

Living with bipolar and anxiety is uncertain, but I am absolutely certain about this: While it may be my name on the ballot, this is not entirely my victory. This victory belongs to every single person who wakes up every day and works to lead a good life in spite of their mental illness. This is a victory for every person who works to eliminate the fear, discrimination, and misinformation about mental illness. This is our victory, because we all stood together and weren’t quiet. We shared our stories, believed in ourselves, and supported each other. In the end, we all won, together.

We didn’t just click a gray box that said VOTE. We opened ourselves up to the idea that people with mental illness can, and do, #livebold. Thank you to everyone who voted and shared this story with the people in their lives. Working together, we accomplished something amazing.

I cannot thank you enough.

~Gabe Howard

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Hello world!

Welcome to the new GabeHoward.com. I am currenty working the kinks out and setting everything up.  There will be more to come very shortly. Stay tuned!

In the meantime – connect with me on FaceBook or E-mail me, gabe@gabehoward.com

A special thanks to Elijah Heiss for making this possible. :)

Thank you,
Gabe Howard

 

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